The endddd

Fuhh fuhh. Haha berhabuk. I've been so busy, I don't even have time to catch up the new movies for weeks dah ni haih. Oh Ohhh yes, will not be using this blog anymore. Bye bye bye. I guna tumblr saja lepas ni ye youu alls. Sambil cuci mata, sambil post blog. Hahaha okay chowww!

Turn the page,

I couldnt deny the sadness, disappointment of everything had happened before. It keeps coming back. I thought I'm over it. But even the smallest thing remind me of how people are able to do anything to get what they want despite of any resistances. Looking back on how things crumbled and how this particular person walk away as if nothing happens. It hurts so bad. Its like you dont know the whole thing and you keep rewinding the event and you making up stories in your head to fill in the blank which they insisted not to let you know. And you keep on asking why and what is actually going on. As for me, knowing everything and hurt so bad is better than left with nothing. Because you cant move on until you know why, and whats the reason of all the actions taken.

I need to be able to control my emotion, my own life because letting others doing this, all this to me is driving me crazy. They had fun together and left me with madness. But i believe, Allah itu maha adil, and what goes around, comes around. So let just wait and see. Its not karma, but we know even in Islam, evertyhing you do has the consequences. May happiness will always be with you.

Current life

My Current Life

1. What was the highlight of your week?
Nothing like yah, nothing is special.

2. Whose car were you in last?
zafri's

3. When is the next time you will kiss someone?
Well, let's see

4. What color shirt are you wearing?
Baby blue

5. How long is your hair?
Shoulder length.

6. Are you good looking?
Hahaha no

7. Last movie you watched?
Kristy

8. Who were you with?
Zafri

9. Last thing you ate?
Nasi goreng

10. Last thing you drank?
Plain water

11. When was the last time you had your heart broken?
Can't recall hahahahaha kill me heh

12. Who came over last?
Zafri

13. Are you happy right now?
A big yes

14. What did you say last?
"tidur la"

15. Where is your phone?
Right in my hand

16. What color are your eyes?
Brownish

17. Are you left-handed?
Nopeee

18. Spell your name without vowels:
ST NR QL RZL

19. Do you have any pets?
5 cats

20. Favorite Vacation?
All of it

21. What do you dislike currently?
Nothing I guess

22. What are you listening to?
Better than revenge by Taylor Swift

23. If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
I'm not sure whether the gold watch or Nike sports shoes

24. What is your favorite scent?
Lemon. Yes.

25. Who makes you happiest?
Family friends and Zafri hiks

26. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Sleeping?

27. When is your birthday?
22nd of march

28. Who has the same phone as you?
No one that I know

29. Last time you went swimming in a pool?
After I finished my diploma

30. Do you read your horoscope?
Used to

31. Where was the last place you bought something?
Wait i can't remember what was the last thing I bought?

32. How do you feel about your hair right now?
Loving it

33. Do you bite your nails?
Nopeee

34. Do you have any expensive jewelery?
Not that expensive. But yah pretty much

35. Do you wear any jewelery?
Bracelets

36. Myspace or facebook?
Neither

37. How fast have you driven a car?
Hahahaha since I don't have my driving license yet, so the answer is not so fast. Don't wanna cause any trouble

38. Have you ever smoked?
I tried once because I just wanna know the taste of the cigarette. Hahahaha

39. What was or is your favorite subject in school?
Well out of 10 subjects, i like engineering drawing the most. Hahaha bio? The least favourite.

40. Do you have Verizon?
Nopeeee

41. What type of boy or girl do you usually fall for?
Tall dark and handsome = zafri

42. Do you have any hidden talents?
Try me

43. Favorite Song?
None

44. Do you like to sing at all?
Not really

45. Dream Job?
Something adventurous and not in the office of course.

46. Where does most of your family live?
Shah alam

47. Are you an only child or do you have siblings?
I have 2 sisters and a brother

48. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
Nope because my little sister kinda took all the attention away from me

49. What was the first thing you thought when you woke up?
Where's my phone

50. Do you drink?
Plain water? Yes

51. Know any other languages?
Bahasa and English. Yah

52. Ever write a coded message?
Haha no

53. Have you ever been IN a wedding?
I'm single and not married yet.

54. Do you have any children?
Hahahaha noo

55. Did you take a nap today?
Nope, I've been so busy

56. Who has the same birthday as you?
A long lost friend of mine. Met her like few years back then through her boyfriend but now I don't even remember her name...

57. Ever met anyone famous before?
Yes, like so many times

58. Do you want to be famous one day?
Nah

59. Any Pet Peeves?
No

60. Are you multitasking right now?
Am not

61. Do you like Britney Spears?
Okay je

62. What is your least favorite chore?
I don't know

63. Last place you drove your car?
Well not my car, the last time I drove which I'm not sure from where to where. Sec9 to home I guess. Or sec 7? Hahaha I don't remember.

64. Ever been out of the country?
Yes

65. Where were you born?
Malaysia hahaha

66. Could you handle being in the military?
I am not really sure but used to be active in marching activities and jungle tracking camping and stuff

67. What is your average cell phone bill?
Rm100

68. Who are you thinking about right now?
Tbh, Zafri lolololol

69. When was the last time you laughed REALLY hard?
Err can't recall

70. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
More than 10 for sure

71. Are your toes always painted?
No

72. How many piercings do you have?
A pair. Thinking of getting 2 more. Hahahahah

73. What are you doing today?
Study for the test tomorrow and zafri's friends sister wedding.

74. Have you ever been gambling?
Nope

75. When is the last time you updated your page?
Tah laaa

76. Do you like rollercoasters?
Hell yes.

77. Have you ever been to disneyland or world?
One day!

78. Do you have a favorite cartoon character?
Pooh.

79. Last thing you cooked?
Mee goreng for breakfast!

80. How's the weather?
Raining heavily

81. Do you e-mail?
Yupp,

82. What's the stupidest thing you ever did with your cell phone?
Throw it away whenever I'm angry? Haha

83. Last time you were sick?
Few weeks ago

84. What states have you lived in?
Selangor

85. Do you wish you could move?
Nope never

86. What is your dream car?
The volkswagen beetle! The classic one.

87. Have you ever wanted someone you cant have?
Nope

88. If you could be anywhere right now where would it be?
Rome!

89. Are you happy with your life?
Yes I am, minus the stressful parts.

90. What is one regret in your life?
Well I don't have any. Hahahaha since I did pretty much stupid things, but we humans make mistakes. So whatever.

Hiks

Have i told you that, one day, we went to pejabat agama islam if I'm not mistaken, to take borang kursus kahwin for Zafri's cousin and his fiancée. Then I waited in the car and blablabla. He came back from the office and then he gave me the papers. And i was like, "why there are two sets?" and he replied "oh ours?" and he made this face, he smiled and with his brightest eyes hahahaha my god. Comel nak pengsan. That was so nice of him to actually think about going to the kursus kahwin. But we're going to finish our studies first of course. Hahahahaha dah bye.

Braces survey hahahaha

1. What are you getting corrected with your braces? Example: underbite, overbite, teeth straightening, etc.

Teeth straightening

2. Please rate the scale of pain, if any, you had getting your braces put on.

Horrid pain!

3. When getting braces put on how long did you have to keep your mouth open. Please give a estimate of time.

Hahaha the heck.

4. How long did it hurt after getting your braces put on. Please provide a number of days below.

Like months? Duhh

5. Please rate the pain level for having your braces tightened?

Infinity luls
 

6. What food restrictions do you have? Please list all.

None. Well at first I can't eat anything other than porridge. So yah.

7. Did you ever break food restrictions.

 Yes

8. How many months did/do you have to wear your braces?

Almost 4 years.

9. Once your braces are removed will you have to have further orthodontic work?

 Yes.


10. How much did/will your braces cost?

Hahahahahaha sibuk je nak tau

Kellie's Castle

Been here! Went to tapah since brother has finished his current semester. So alang-alang dah sampai and plus the Kellie's Castle is somewhere there, why not kan? The entrance fee wasn't expensive, affordable so, give it a try! The castle was said to be haunted by Kellie whom died somewhere in Portugal if I'm not mistaken, and not in the house and the locals said, he's taking care of the house at night, I'm not sure whether it's true or not. The house was actually still under construction and it was left just the way it is. I went up till the rooftop of the castle so you basically can see everything around the castle from up there. But since it's not surrounded by the paddy field or what, you can only see trees. But pretty amazing. And it's quite a good view.

It was raining heavily all the way back to shah alam so the journey took quite some time. Plus the rain, accidents and cars. That's all then.

Thanks for reading!

Yes, you.

You're an actress
Pretend to be good
Telling everyone what I did wrong
Victimizing yourself

You know what he said?
"I was playing around
I was bored, she's nothing"
And even worse.
Have I told you that?
Nope, I did not.

It's my fault
Trying to fix what's broken
Because of you... And him
And now stop.
You've no idea
What I'm dealing with
What I've been through before
What I did and willing to do.

What have you done?
Even you know who I am
And what I am?
Now you're telling me,
What's right and wrong?
Do you need a doctor?

Don't go around
And telling shits about me
When you're the one who did wrong
You don't even know me
I did for a reason,
And you're the reason why.

Do me a favor,
Go away
And never come back
You're nothing
Not more than nothing.